...consistency is key *nod nod* I've been looking through people's galleries and i noticed that the deviants with most watchers and such have good quality art throughout their entire gallery, and the quality is consistent. Theres no massive difference between all their art (drawing style wise) but they're all of the same general quality... this is what my findings have told me :3 unfortunately, the GCSE period is gonan come rolling on in and i really dont have loads of time to spend on art. I have a strict regime of things i NEED and REALLY MUST do lol...too organized maybe? Well, it consists mainly of ALOT of revision and practice exam papers, and when im not doing that i'll be trying to exercise so i can slim a little for prom in June...and when im not doing THAT i'll be being sociable and seeing friends and shopping. I guess you'd think that if i can shopa dn see friends surely i can draw...well the answer is, yes ocassionaly- the thing is though both these things go towardsgood cause aswell :s i need to be sociable and keep my friends close and i need to buy decent clothes because college doesnt have uniform so i need to look half decent for college when i eventually go...i also need to aply for an A levels course (oh fuck me i'll regret that)

anyways christmas was really awesome, for some odd reason i really wanna go expo again ASAP :S that and im addicted to eddie izzard atm O.o'

IT'S SNOWED AND IS STILL SNOWING HERE!!!! its so purdy :3 i've also just noticed the lack of 'deviant ART' as it were...but i've been on a different computer coz this one was broken and the other one didnt have photoshop and MYEEEHHHH....anyways...i'll upload some christmas art...sooner rather than later i hope :S

I'm ill...i feel like aaabsoluuuteee crap -.-' is it swine flu? ..no...my temperatures not high enough for it to be swine flue.. but i'm light headed, dizzy, tired all the time, really cold when i'm awake and really hot when im asleep/trying to sleep and im not hungry at all O.O'' and i'm ALWAYS eating XD whats worse is, it's my brothers birthday today and i cant go to his little celebration thing because im ill ..i didnt really want to infect his girlfriend with my 'illness' anyway..it's probably just an awful cold...REALLY awful ..i bet you anything my luck will be crap as ever and i'll be fine by tomorrow morning T.T yaay school -.- lol.. ANYWAY moving on XD

Right..so...i've looked through my gallery and basically... it's all pretty shit XD
And thats not me pitying myself, its the truth XD my drawing style of wolves (haha ...did i say wolves?..i only draw one -.-'' just keeps altering every time i draw them...(...it -.-'' So.. i'm gonna do my homework and ask around deviant art for tips and shizzle..i'm hoping to actually establish a proper drawing style.. any tipss? i would say who my favourtie wolf artists on her are but.. im worried people are gonna get there before me D: lmao and i'll be stuck in 'crappy wolf-ville'... :S

one last thing...i really need a job... why am i telling you this? because this is like a diary for me..no one else reads my journals anyway..LOL XD so..
i need a job..to earn money..to buy clothes...so i look more feminine..so i dont dress like a hobo XD this is all like..influenced by a crude comment my brother made last night.. lol ... I really wanna start growing up now, like, be more mature in everything i do.. keep the sense of humor, but try not to use it (its rather derogatory, sadistic and racist O.o'''' craig's fault..lol) i need to start putting more effort into school work aswell..i need my GCSE's.. im gonna be a supply teacher i hope..providing i get the grades ...hmmm

IT WAS EPICCCCC!! im so tired...ill just tell you how the whole day went

so, got up at quarter to five, gt ready (forgot my tights had to pop home :S) got to the excel center at roughlyyy... 8? qued up to get into the que to get in...LOL! got some goodie bags in the huggeee line, shouted HEY at some characters we knew, me and my friend were trying to chase a small green light O.O'''' and my other friend..told DARTH VADER..he lost the game...HOMG SO FUCKING FUNNYY! everyone was like OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO >: D and then, we got let in, but, i lost the main half of my ticket somewhere in the line, and the bloody woman wouldn't let me in, and so i was like nearly crying man coz i panicked coz all the others got in ..then alice (MY SAVIOURRR) came back and helped my find one of the excel peoples who got me in XD then i thought i'd lost my phone, THEN i thought i'd lost my purse..and it was too much stress for so early :S so, after i FINALLY got everything right, we wandered round and all the stalls were wicked!!! THE YAOI STALL WAS EVEN MORE EPIC!!! tom baker was there too... <3 i wanted a pig plushie, but it was 30 quid, thats what the man said anyways :/ so anyway, then we bot shit loads of hugs coz we had awesome signs, and wandered around, and had some pictures taken of us, and danced in front of cameras in crowds and stufff and it was FUNNYY SHIT. Then there were many more hugss and funny things, someone tried to kidnap me in a bed sheet :S and then i lost my friends and then i found them, and then we came home RENO FUCKING IGNORED ME! he was the fittest best cosplay reno there, and he ignored me when i went to hug him *sniffle* ..git...
it was a pretty eventful day, i didnt wanna leave, i felt really happy amidst a crowd of huggy happy nice people ..still miffed about their bloody prices...i went in with 45 quid and came out with two yaoi books and a hat...RIP OFF MUCH..i scraped all that money together too...still IT WAS AWESOME

problem...

my yaoi books are in japanese/chinese/i dont know...anyone who can translate the pages if i scanned them? ...im desperate to read my books


eckk... exhausted...uploading some pictures later...CIAO!! xoxox

I am absolutely sick to the back teeth of being judged by people. I keep getting falsely accused about complete bullshit!!! apparently, i rank my friends, like if im talking to someone, and i see someone else more 'interesting' i walk off. Why are people so fucking convinced that i sit there and think "oh look someone better" because i just fucking do stuff, i dont flick-book through every possible thought of the person standing opposite me if i walk off. How the fuck am i supposed to knwo they've come to speak to me personally when we're stood in a group of 4+ ...im not a fucking mind reader and im sick of being expected to be a certain way or deal with things the way everyone else does, im an individual and i wont follow a flock of fucking sheep while they all bleet together. Its only recently that people have decided i'm a terrible bitchy person...i havent done anything different to last year, i go from person to person like i always have, and now its wrong all of a sudden? Theres only one person who'll i'll actually care enough about to put myself out for, and yeah i havent been brilliant, not at all, but nobody is gonna fucking special treatment so i wish they'd stop expecting it. I dont understand the problem. What shall i do instead, sit down and wait for whoever wants to talk to me to come over? NO wait, that'll make me boring wont it? That or an attention seeker. I can't help but think theres actually nobody who understands the way i work... and fair enogh, i probably dont understand how the majority of my friends work, but they dont even consider the possibilities when i do something they regard as 'bitchy'. They just make me the enemy and gang up on me. Maybe i've blown it out of proportion, but right now its doing my head in, because i have been feeling crappy lately, so i may well have been genuinally snappy or anti social, but not any of the things they accuse me of. What psyches me up most about all this is the fact i've had the decency to talk a load of long winded crap with metaphors and all that shit and really try for some of those people, and they dont even have the tiniest bit of fucking decency to do the same for me, theres only one person who'll genuinally try for me, but i'd never even expect her to coz shes my best friend and shes got her own problems to worry about. Theres one other person who'll really try but i dont trust him. He used to fancy my friend and then we fell out, and because she 'hated' me, so did he, after i'd done fuck loads for him. But now suddenly he'll do shit loads for me..but only coz he fancies me...i just think thats sick tbh... what kind of person does that? I never write emo journals about stuff to do with myself. Not ones like this. I'm so angry right now...no one is even gonna be assed to read this all, or even at all.

ciao xoxo